everything is destinied?

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Well, today is kind of boring... Was actually suppose to go out with one of my friend to celebrate his birthday but end up he has to cancel it cause other stuff comes out... No choice but to postpone it to next saturday instead... can say that I was neutral with it cause this is not the first time he is doing this... used to it d... haha

Anyway, i think i am glad that he cancel the outing. why? cause if it was not for this, I would have still stuck with a problem. What problem? studies problem. A lot of new subjects we are learning this semester and majority of them are NOT easy AT ALL. Seriously! >.<

But luckily one of my friends offered to teach me. He said he is not very pro at it but still at least I am able to learn something instead of now, knowing nothing. Thanks alot ya! =)

This semester is seriously not easy and that does not make me any happier. =/

Anyhow, I have plan to graduate by next year May and I'll make sure I WILL!!! That is the promise I'll keep to myself and I'll fulfill. =)

Hang in there! Gambate, Balitung-chan! =)

The best is yet to come. =)

btw, Happy Halloween, ppl! XD

Happy~ ^^ ♥

Friday, October 30, 2009

Nowadays I felt much happier since last night. =)

Had one hell of fun that day. ^^
I hate to admit it but sometimes my heart still soften or weakens when I see you..
But I had improve alot since that day..
And I mean alot! =)
Thanks to this, I strongly believe on this phrase...

"Time will heal and cure everything"

Cause I had faced it myself. =)
Anyway, a few days ago was not as nice as today though.
Cause of some people..
Let me just ask u this simple question...
If a person demand for an "A" for a subject but gives rubbish work, do you think he should get a huge slap on the face?
No? If no then ma no lo..
Yes ma yes lo..
Just asking for opinion nia ma..
Comment on this question please~ XD
cause that is what I kena a few days ago...
thus killing tonnes of my skin cells unintentionally... >.<
Anyway, its over d.. Whats done is done...
Forgive and forgets ^^

anyway will upload pics and talk about Wednesday evening soon. ^^

My part is done =D

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Just finished my part of the assignment. Felt more relieve as one task had been scratched off from my to-do list... =)

balapapa~ But I still have one more assignment to go though... >.<

sigh... the thought of it just kills me...

U know what I feel like doing now? I feel like wanna go out~~~ hang out with friends~~~ Go clubbing if can.. XDD I know that is a bad girl thing but hey, I wanna know how is the environment and the place is like... XD

But unfortunately, this so called dream of mine wont be fulfilled so quickly...

Why? because I am living under the same roof with 2 government who do not support bribery... anti-rasuah u see... so yeah, there goes my chance to fulfill my dream~~ T.T XD

Anyway, all I have to do is to wait for a few more years then freedom shall be mine~!!! muahahaha~ *grins*

man, its been ages since I last crap on my blog... it feels good~ =)

New blog template~

Saturday, October 24, 2009

yes yes... I have finally change my blog template~ What you think? how is it? Nice ma? =)

hehe.. happy happy! ^^

(Although i really have to start doing my assignment... Havent start a thing ko... >.<)

Too lazy d~ =X

will go and start now before its too late~ XD


Friday, October 23, 2009

Today I can consider it as neutral... Why? cause today was good.. as in nothing went wrong and etc... but then somehow my mood does not have the same frequency as my day though... Why?

I dont know... Maybe was too bored or felt lonely? O.o But anyway, it did not last for long.. =)

Seriously after spilling out everything yesterday at my previous post, I really felt better... Although sometimes there is still a feeling of awkwardness from time to time, its minor... =)

balapapa~ Hope the days to come are as good as today...

love and peace, ppl~ ^^

I am confused

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I am confused of my feelings towards you... Whether is it because I miss our memories or is it that I still love u? I dont know... I really dont... There are times when I thought I am finally over you but the next day, something you did will make me think otherwise... *sigh* =/

To be frank, the feeling I am having now is that I want you back... I want you back in my life... I want you to be there for me whenever I am sad or happy... To be there to share my life... But I guess it's no use telling them out now does it? The damage had been done and the consequences are all that are left for me to bear... It hurts deeply sometimes but what else can I do but to tighten the grip of my fist and bear with it? What else can I do?

I did try to be friends with you again but most of the times, I'll hold myself back... afraid that I might not able to face the ugly truth once more... I tried hating you with all my heart but sadly, it was to no avail...

To tell you honestly, every now and then memories of us will come filling into my head and before I realized it, I had already sink myself into our memories... Those memories which we once cherish and share... Those days when we love each other with all our hearts... Those days to me, were filled with nothing but happiness... I could not find anything else which can replace those moments... I even thought that this was the one whom I thought was ideal... But sadly, not everything comes to a good ending does it? Not everything you hope to get will fall onto your hands does it? *sigh*

I know and I've learn it the hard way... The way which I have to endure this torturous feeling for as long as it stays... I've been trying to brush this off... Trying to deny what I actually felt... But the denial will end today as I spill them out in this post... You might never read it at all... Might never know how I feel... I dont care anymore because atleast I felt better after that... Atleast to me, I'm finally facing the problem that I tried to run away from...

But if there is a choice, I hope I can turn back time and hope that when we meet, it was at the right place and at the right time... in future? I dont know... right now, I'll just go with the flow...

the 160th post

Monday, October 19, 2009

I know i said I dont wanna blog anymore but no choice... For the sake of not wanting my number of post to end with a 9... I blog...

(The previous post was my 159th post... a '9' there u see.... ugly hor? >.<)

anyway, wanna watch fullmetal alchemist now... XD then go to bed earlier today... Cause cant afford to be in a sick mode for long... the feeling sucks... >.<

ps: the more I look at u, the more I hate u... >.< its not like u'll read my blog anyway...

bad day

I shall rate today as not good... Not good at all... why? cause I woke up with a sore throat... follow up with flu and lastly, cough... sobs... Yesh, I am sick... =/ sien nia... feel so steam and blur right now... But still have the energy to go on9 though... XP hehe... anyway, nowadays nothing much happen... just the same old routine... Wake up, breakfast, go College, go home, on9, sleep... The same old thing repeat and repeat and repeat...

haiz... bored... I know... I am living a boring lifestyle... >.<

haiz... But of course, i did went for a swim every now and then lo... Still ok gua... =/ But this sem not going for training d cause nobody wanted to train... sigh... Lets just hope that I wont rust badly when I go for the InterCampus this December ba... >.<

Last year, it was ok cause there is constant training u see... But now, with my own ability (+ my lazyness XPP) God knows how will I perform that time... =/ haiz haiz... no choice... Have to work harder by myself d! XD

balala... sigh... I think I'll just stop here ba...nothing much to talk about... =X not in the mood to crap much anyway...

the biggest slap

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

The moment the lecture was dismissed, she quickly packed her things and rushed out of the hall towards the internet lab. This was the day she had been waiting for since she knew about it. As she marched towards the lab, her heart beats 2 times faster than its regular rate. No words can utter from her mouth as she waited for the web page to load. To make the matter worse, the system is working slowly than usual due to the number of students who too were trying to log in at the internet lab. Impatiently, she kept clicking the refresh button hoping to speed up the process but it was to no avail. Instead, it was much slower than it used to.

She had waited for almost 15 minutes while playing games to kill time but the system was still as slow as it was before. Even her friends who were with her had successfully checked their results. Frustrated, she changed to another computer hoping to get a better outcome but sadly, was to no avail again. This continue to happen until the last 5 minutes before 12pm strike, the results were finally out. The moment she set her eyes on the screen, she felt an invisible slap on her face. A hard and solid one. There was no mark on her face but the mark was marked in her heart and soul. It was swollen after awhile. Swollen with sadness, disappointment and shock. At that time, negative feelings had taken over her soul and mind. There was dark aura around her, nothing bright, cheery or sunny. None at all. Not even a simple smile can she forged on her face.

One thing about her which until now she considered it her weak point was she could never fake her feelings. So there she was the whole day at college without a smile nor a slight feeling of happiness. She was blaming everything on her and no one else because she knew it was useless. No matter how much she wanted to push the responsibility to someone else nothing can be done to change what had happen. Nothing can turn back time so that she could avoid this unwanted mistake. Nothing. Nothing at all. She was in total silence when she entered the next class but went out to make a phone call after placing down her bag.

She told her mum about her results heavy-heartedly. The thought of all the high hopes that she hoped to achieve for her was filling her head and before she could stop it, tiny droplets of tears begin to stream down from her eyes. Her vision was blurred but she ignored it. As she continued to speak, her voice weakened and her words had jumbled up in a murmur. Yes, she was crying in her friend's arms as she ended her conversation with her mum. Atleast there was a shoulder for her to lean and to cling on for support when she needed it most. Quickly, she wiped off her tears and washed her face in the toilet. As she and her friend slowly walked back to the tutorial room, she managed to calm herself down.

Matters became worse when she received news about the results of other people. There she was wondering what had gone wrong. She knew what had happen and the cause of it but the mistake was irreversible. There was no use crying over spilled milk but to tell herself to work harder and more serious for the coming exams. She knew she could do better this time and she will. Hope that the future will be able to cover this filthy pathetic past of hers cause this was the last thing she wanted to be reminded of.

Once beaten twice shy, there will not be a second time...

Funny but true... XD

Monday, October 12, 2009

I received this email from one of my friends and I cant help laughing as I read it on... XD

Have a look.. XD

Things You Need to Know About Chinese Swordsman Movies
1. Being the hero's parents will always be unlucky and will usually be killed by enemies when the hero is young, and the hero will become an orphan.

2. When a man is wounded and dying, he always manage to catch his breath and speak a few sentences to reveal the killer before dropping his head and declared dead.

3. Skilled people are able to fly over roof tops, up trees and across distances without any sweat. But when travelling to towns and villages, they still have to walk or ride horses.

4. The heroes need not have to work for money, but will always have gold and silvers with them to pay for their dishes.

5. The heroes and villains will meet each other very often no matter how big the country is and no matter where they are.

6. Healing internal wounds in the body is as easy as sitting down cross-legged, palms on the knees and smoke coming out from the head.

7. They can keep a lot of stuff in their sleeves and waistband and never drop them (carrying especially lots of those gold and silver ingots)

Things You Would Never Know Without Indian Movies

1. A man will show no pain while taking the most ferocious beating
but will wince when a woman tries to cleanse his wounds.

2. The hero cannot fall in love with the heroine (vice versa) unless they first perform a dance number in the rain.

3. Once applied, make-up is permanent, in rain or in any other situation.

4. Two lovers can be dancing in the field and out of nowhere, 100
people will appear from god-knows-where and join them in the dance.

5. In the final scene, the hero will discover that the bad guy who he is up against is actually his brother and the maid who looked after him is his mother and the chief inspector is his father and the Judge is his uncle and so forth.

6. Key English words used in the movie (usually said out loud between sentences) are No Problem!, My God!, Get Out!, Shut-up!, Impossible!, Please forgive me!

7. They drop down on the ground and roll and roll while singing and
come out with different clothing.

8. They can run around the coconut trees, singing, batting eyes-lid, throwing glances at each other and change clothes all at the same time without being out of breath.

funny eh? and very true... X)


Sunday, October 11, 2009

I dont know why but somehow I feel very emo and down for now. It was like I cant find anything that can cheer me up. Nothing. Maybe my mum was right about having butterflies in my stomach. Maybe I am like that right now is because of the results tomorrow.

Seriously, frankly speaking, I am very very nervous. I am scared. Scared of what the results will bring tomorrow. Happiness? sadness? Cant forgive myself for the results? which one will it be? *sigh*

Im scared... I really am... Cant wait to face the result and get over with it.. Atleast I dont have to seat here and keep guessing like a mad person... =(


hope tomorrow brings good news...
*pray hard* =/


Saturday, October 10, 2009

Its Saturday and here I am staring at the screen of my laptop again. Was hoping to get a part of assignment done but unfortunately nothing comes into my mind. Why? I dont know. Besides, the explanation in the paper was not clear enough. *sigh* I was really clueless on what the thing actually want. damn! >.<


very sien...


very bored...

help! =/

A thing or 2

College had started since a week ago and here I am having 2 assignments on hand already! Hectic is the word that will describe this sem. =/

Speaking of which, I went for a movie on wed with some of my course mates and Shirlyn. Sounds fun? yeah.. it was "fun" alright. why? Cause I was dragged into watching Sorority Row! thats why!

T.T for those who don't know, I not a fan of horror and thriller movies. Nah-a! Never a fan cause I'll ended up screaming or shouting every now and then when the killer is about to strike or when the ghost is about to appear. One more thing is they purposely maximize the volume of the music when it was about to happen. Yes, that scared the shit out of me. >.<

So for that movie, I hugged Shirlyn's hand very tightly and yes, my screaming did scare her instead of the movie. XD That cannot be blame cause I did not ask to watch triller. She was like "next time dont wanna watch triller with u d ler. U scare me more than the movie did!" after we came out from the cinema. hee.. So much for a movie with friends. XPP

Happy~ ♥

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Things had finally taken a 360 degree turn... Why? cause the problems that I had faced a few days ago had solved and it was solved the way I wanted it to. ^^ was seriously damn happy about this...

Like people always say, in every dark cloud there is a silver lining... I never fail in believing that idiom... Because I myself had encounter it not only once but more than that... =)

But of course, when I was in the "dark cloud", I was seriously very emo... Nothing can cheer me up that time... Even if it did, it did not last long... =/ My world that time was filled with thunder storms and nothing else... But now its the total opposite! ^^V

It is always sunshine and flowers bloom like nobody's business... wee~~~ that is my world now... ^^ It feels so good to know that the burden you carried had been finally lifted~

Hope everyday that comes will have my world filled with sunshine~ =)

^^ ♥ ♥ ♥ ^^

today's mood: happy ^^


Wednesday, October 7, 2009

hope 2mr turn out to be better than today....

hope my problem will be able to solve by then...
hope everything went on smoothly...
*cross my fingers*


I hate it.. emo

Tuesday, October 6, 2009


i dont know why but i just wanna bla something out....
its like... I feel beh song....
very very uneasy...
so uneasy that I wish I can just scream my lungs out loud....
hoping that it can lift up that heavy load....
And to think that yesterday was good...
It was perfect ok?
yesterday was smooth sailing....
but today... tuh diah!
turn out like shit nia...
I really hope I can survive this sem...
It is only the second day and I already felt like it has been weeks!!!
time past so freaking slow when u are down and out... =/
haiz... =(

ps: i thought u wanted to be friends... but when I tried talking to u.... u gave me a cold shoulder... what the hell man... =.=

bad bad day

yes.. today is only the second day of the second sem and here I am sulking over some issues which I no longer have the power to do anything.... yes... I am still sulking... but there is nothing I can do about it... So just let it be and see where does this go... Life has its ups and downs.... Nothing is constant, nothing ALWAYS goes the way you want it to be.... So just be it.... ignore your plan if it fails... Who knows? maybe the path I am going now will lead to something better? Good or bad its hard to say.... So just let it be... I know I can overcome the boundaries and obstacles.... and i will!!!

gambateh, Sharon-san... Aki nominaide!!! XD

Candid pics 2

Sunday, October 4, 2009

These are the candid pics from Jerejak island... XD Enjoy~

Person in pic: Ah Ten
Motive: wanted to act cool but... sigh... was interrupted by Choon Soon so there goes his coolness... XD

For this pic, I guess I dont have to say anything... The pic says it all... XD

Ah Ten trying to snatch Choon Soon's seat...

Ah Ten manage to snatch the seat. Choon Soon trying kacau him. the scene is sensored by Keat Wei. XD

The clearer view of the case "bully" XD

***Scenario End***

***Next Scenario***

presenting my 6 models... Today they are gonna teach u...
How To Act Cute With The Symbols "0", "2" and "5"... XD

The first symbol: 2
Which post u prefer? Got 6 different models with 6 different post to choose... XD

The symbol: 0
cute ma my models? XD

Last but not least....
The symbol "5"....
The cutest post among all!!! XD


Ps: Dont kill me if u all saw these... the pics are too cute to not share... XPP

Last day of sem break

Today is the last day of sem break aka my last day of fun... sigh... This is the first time Im whining about the sem break being too short... >.<>

Anyway, I was having my afternoon nap just now and I slept for 3 straight hours... woo! That's my new record for afternoon nap... XD just woke up awhile ago and now still feel kind of blur. Not only that, my stomach is hungry already! sish...

Ok.... Since my holidays are about to end, let me share some of the funny, candid pics with u all here... Up first, the pics from Cameron Highlands... It was taken at the Robinson Waterfall... The place there was seriously peaceful and refreshing with nothing but trees surrounding the waterfall... you can really smell fresh air there... No pollution or whatsoever... =) the sound of the splashing water caused by the waterfall really can calm your mind.

But while we were at there, I manage to take a few pics of my sis's "story"... Check it out... XP

Presenting the sampat "main" actress... XD
We manage to reach near the waterfall and there is how far we were allowed to go...

my sis: Can I go over there? Please?
Mum: no no no... Its dangerous...

2nd attempt of persuasion: Through dad
Unfortunately, she was ignored...XPP

So she could only stare at the spot she wanted to go...
she thinking: not want de... I want adventure! =/

***The End***

Its been ages

Its been quite some time since I last blog... As in post about my thoughts or my life... Why? Cause its either Im too busy playing games on the net or too lazy... Well, I have been having a lot of fun during my 2 weeks of semester break... Went to Cameron Highlands with my parents, one day trip to Jerejak with some of my college friends, hang out with my secondary school friends and crap... Had a lot of fun with them.. =)

Like yesterday, Shirlyn and I went shopping at Gurney... We went there in the morning and shop until 6pm... XD It was seriously fun... We went in every boutique and try everything clothes that we feel like trying... ^^ bought a top too... =)

To be frank, the mood I'm having right now is seriousness.... Nothing in me has the mood to crap or think something silly... Why? Blame it on my sis... She ruin my mood... Her profession... >.<>

Anyway, my results for the previous semester are coming out soon... Hope I score good and didnt fail any subject... *praying hard*

Alot had happen during the last semester... I hope this semester is gonna be better... I think it will be better... =)

Delcious Icecream



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