Torn apart...

What happens if you were given ONLY 2 choices to choose...

And the worst part of it all is the question...

Love or Friendship?

to be with the one u love or to be the one who is equally important, your best friend?

There is no other options besides these 2... >.<

Trying hard not to think bout this for now...

Choose to delay this until the time finally comes...

the time when i have to think wisely about this...

which i secretly hope that will not happen... =(

C++

C++ very very tough...
the new assignments damn hard...
see stars nia... gai lo sien lo...
nex week got 3 more freaking test to go... haiz...
the thought of it kills my soul deeply... >.<

argh!!!
sien!!!
i need a vacation!

emo

emo...
emo...
emo....
very emo...
realy emo....
damn emo...
bloody emo...
stupid emo...

SIEN!!!!
>.<

bloody hell....
lost...
confuse...
assignments and tests piling up like shitty mountains...

#%$^%!!!!!

ps: hate this stupid day... =(

I wanted you by Ina

The lyrics is kind of sad but the melody is seriously nice... Damn addicted to this song for now... =)

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I... I'm so sorry baby
But I, I... I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
... to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

To u, my dear...

I know these few weeks are very pressuring...
Not only u feel that way, everyone who's taking this course feels the same...
I really really wanted to help u...
but I seriously dont know how...
Still im too fragile to be treated like the way u treat me now...
hot then cold then hot again...
And dont know when u'll treat me cold again...
My heart is too fragile and weak to absob the impulse it had on me...
Thus it'll cause me to be emo everytime im around u...
That is why i choose to space out 4 awhile... until all these had passed...
Because I am not strong enough for this...
I thought i am but i was wrong...
I tried to be strong enough but my walls are not properly build...
Am still changing...
Into someone whom can bear with this...
I'll be stronger for you but i need more time...
Pls dont hate me for what I did...
Because that is the best way that I could think of...

U might not even read this but if u ever did (i hope u will)... these are the words from the bottom of my heart...
Love u now and always~
<3

No Boundaries by Kris Allen

I am currently addicted to this song... hehe
very nice and meaningful...
Inspirational~~~ XD

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away

Coz here I am - still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries x2

I fought to the end to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets
Don’t know where the future’s headed
Nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every line
I’ve risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why

[ Kris Allen Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
So here I am still holding on
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
Yeah…

There are no boundaries
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
There are no boundaries x3

Yeah~~ there's no boundaries... =)

Test over... sad or happy?

The hardest test is finally over...
Not really satisfy with it though...
But cant be blame...
I din memorise and did the studying at the eleventh hour...
so what u sow is what u reep...
Cant be expecting miracles... =/

haiz...
become very hyper sensitive nowadays...
No thanks to that, I get emo easily... =(
Not only that, kept doing things accidentally at the wrong time...
Like saying something wrong at the time, the wrong place...

haih...
Im very very trashy nowadays... =(

Stress

Ok... let me introduce a thing or two about one of my subjects that im currently studying which is engineering materials (aka chemistry)...

First of all, define strain...
Strain is the unit change in the size or shape of a metal after an amount of STRESS acting on it...

So in conclusion, I am now currently strained... haiz...
Since from my current situation, I can calculate the Young Modulus which is also known as the modulus of elasticity...

How to calculate? By using the formula of stress/strain... To calculate strain, we'll simply take the change in my brain's length over the original length... It is dimensionless so tak ada units mia... whereas for stress... Believe it or not, we can calculate it!!! yesh, ppl... we can calculate stress... By using the formula of load/cross section area...

The amount of load that Im having right now is more like Mount Everest!!! No joke wei!!! >.<

argh!!! Im seriously going insane!!!! Stupid assignments, stupid tests... damn this sem!!! so tough... oh my good god!!! haiz... >.<

sick...

Woke up at 10.am this morning...
But currently feeling very dizzy and my head felt seriously heavy...
haiz...
Dont feel like going to mcd later... =.=
summore with all the assignments and tests piling up like theres no 2mr...
the thought of it make me feel worse... urgh... =.=

Feel like sleeping again but scared later overslept jor... >.<
ish...
to go or not to go?
hhhmm... decisions decisions...

Everything back to the way it was... =)

The heartache had stop...

So does the nightmare...

It was a reality but things got back the way it was...

Back into his arms again...

Feeling more secure this time...

After confronting and what we went through... =)

Luckily the nightmare didn't last long...

Hope this will NEVER happen again in the future...

Dear, I love u o...

Love u with all my heart~ <3

Its almost 6 months d o~~ ^^

muaks~ (^*^)

you'r the one who I'll never let go ever again
not for the reason of misunderstanding
never...
I'll hold u tighter this time...
和你的每一分鐘就是我的幸福~ =)

burning the mignight oil

yes, ppl...

This is what you will get for delaying your work to the VERY LAST minute...

burning the midnight oil...

but in my case, its wasting the electricity aka burning the midnight cash...

^$^ (dollar sign with wings)

So moral of this post, NEVER do ANYTHING at the ELEVENTH HOUR!!!!

Seriously man!!!

translation : Do not disturb!!! XD

God knows how my youthful face will be affected.. XP

And and... my panda eyes!!! argh!!! gai nia... haiz... >.<

sobs... cry....

I dont wanna let go... Its hard to let go....

I hate exams....

I hate study...

I hate numbers....

I hate pressure....

These are the things that stole my happiness away from me....

I HATE THESE!!!!!! T.T

nothing in this world can cure and heal my heart completely....

Nothing can bring me back to the way I was...

Feel like wanna wake up from this nightmare...

sadly, its reality....

A reality that I hate the most in my life....

the difference btw a 2 and a 3 can really change a person's life... can really stole my happiness... can really bring my whole self down.... =(

HATE THEM SO MUCH!!!!!

Troubled

why must life be so complicated? haiz... cant things just go on smoothly without any consequences to face when a decision is made???

Why MUST there be a barrier somewhere when you know u have found the right one???

WHy??? WHy??? Why???

*&^%!!! life sucks sometimes... =( T^T

I dont wanna lose u ever...
I hope to hold onto u forever
and never let go..

blalalla~~~

owner of this blog currently doesnt have anything to blog for now...

Will update when something comes into my mind while im on9ing... =)

lalala~~~

PS: Mayling, if u r reading this, here's something for u... what u said was damn chun wei... My mood DOES change like the weather... >.<

My new love~~~

Ahem ahem... first and foremost... Dont salah faham what I wrote for my title ar... I did not change a new bf, still with my current one... =)

The new love that Im talking about is my beloved 4GB pendrive which costs RM132!!! wee~~~ I know I know... Its very pricey for a pendrive but still~~~ temptation is too hard to resist... hehehe XD it was love at first sight... The moment my sis pointed it to me, I was like "omg~~~ I want!!!" XP

here are some of its pics... =)



my new baby~~~ ^^


Im not very good at taking pics so it may look cacated abit... ^^"

It actually has 2 real Swarovski crystals which are made from Germany~~~ hehe...

PS : hope 2mr will be a better day... =)

Habit

There is this post which I read about from some random blogger and in his blog, he mentioned something about... What is the hardest thing to break? A diamond? But a diamond can be broken by using another diamond...

And in the end, he says that it is HABIT... why?

cause if you remove the H, You'll get ABIT...

Then remove A, you still have BITs of it...

Remove B, you are still sadly stuck with IT...

Remove T, you are left with a letter "I"...

So habit is the hardest thing to break cause it comes from u... And like I said, to break a diamond, you need a diamond... So to break your own habit, only you can do it... The power and decision is in your hands... Whether u wanna do it or not and also how strong is your will in breaking that habit... It all lies in u... Its like a saying that goes "you need a thieve to catch a thieve"...

And also it depends on how u break that HABIT of yours...

u can choose to remove the letter "T" instead of the letter "H"....

You can remove any letter u want first depends on you cause there is no rule in the world that says that "u have to remove the H first"... =)

PS: my mood does change like the weather... quick and unpredictable... wakakaka... XD

Random

Just woke up from my so-called afternoon nap.... I slept at 6.30pm and actually planned to wake up an hour after that but sadly... I off the alarm clock and continue staying in my dreamland like the alarm clock never existed... haiz haiz... set alarm clock=no set alarm clock....

Damn! thanks to that, my head is still spinning and everything around me is like floating... Feel so blur blur now... haiz.... Recently, I get emo easily... Why? cause of certain reasons... Sometimes when you wanna stay strong but you can't do it, the feeling really sucks and ta-da! Emo is your best friend.... =( What's worst is that... you felt like as if he doesnt give a damn about you anymore... sad sad...

Haiz... gambateh, Balitung!!! You can do it de... Stay strong!!! >.<

PS: Mental note to myself: NEVER take nap during the evening again!!

PPS: Dad fly us aeroplane and we ended up not going over to butterworth today... Haiz! gai nia! I'm very sorry about this k, shir and keat? =(

Love u~~~ <3

" I'm not afraid of dying but I'm afraid of losing u~~~"

these are the words I felt like telling it to u, dear... Recently u just feel like wanna be alone... at first I misunderstood... thinking that u have neglected me... Sorry for doubting u o~~ >.<

Hope nothing will change btw us... I'm sorry for being too sensitive... Still trying to change this habit of mine... ^^" give me time k?

Just wanna tell u that no matter what happens... I'll always stand by your side and help u de~~ Love u sooo much~~~ muaks~ =)

The day where everything btw us slowly begins... (01.01.09) ^^

assignments and tests....

The weeksss have finally arrive... where we will be piled up with tonnes of assignments and testsss.... haiz haiz haiz... the thought of it kills my moody badly man... >.<


Anyway, my blog has finally revive again~~~ after god knows how many donkey months of dumping it aside, Im finally not lazy to blog again... XD


Ok... the assignment that Im about to touch is first and fore most, PLC... what does it stands for? its actually programmable logic circuit.... but you can modify it to Programmable Lunatic Circuit if u want... yes, u can do it.. YOU have the power to make the circuit loony(illogical)~~~ XD

Let me give u an example... Imagine, the home security sensor... Normally when the sensor detects intruders, the alarm will rang and (for some) they will send an alert to the police... BUT imagine when the sensor sensed intruders, it came out a gun and the next thing u know... water started shooting out... XD wakakaka... and the alarm goes "put your hands up in the 'aiyer 'aiyer~~~"

obviously this is just crapping of cos... i'll get kick out from my course if i were to actually do that... XD