Beach party!!!

After so many days, I finally get to blog about the beach party that I went on monday. The very first one that I actually get to go and hav fun. It was fun alright. I reach there about 6.50pm and luckily I met one of my frens there so Im not so worried because other then her, there was nobody that I recognised or know. Eventhough some of the faces are kind of familiar, still I dont know them.

At around 7.20pm, my group leader finally came and one by one, my group members started to arrived. Then after awhile, some of the guys in my group began to dig a hole in the sand and put some charcoal inside. But nobody started the fire and everyone was like "who used to be a scout eh?". Unfortunately, nobody had the experience of starting a fire so time was kind of wasted over here.(we were indirectly waiting for our leader to come back from the toilet and that took quite some time) ^^" Then he finally came back (he was kind of shock that no fire was started yet) and began to start the fire.

Some of them digging the sand... it was already around 7.45pm i think

*thinking* where is that lighter ah?

"Oi, lighter leh? Has any of one seen the lighter?"

If u look at the pic closely, there is fire di... but very small nia...

Ok... eventhough we had successfully start up the fire, it took us a very very long time to make it big enough for us to cook our food. So long that one of the group members said "aiyo. Other groups start to eat liau la." "I think by the time the fire is done... we go home liau lo." All of us were talking while trying to make the fire bigger, our stomachs were grumbling. Luckily they bought some junk so some of us quickly took one and eat!! abo can faint di... lol... But it was fun.


After the fire was big enough to cook, we started off with the sausages first. However, we did have trouble eating cause there were sand on most of the food we cooked. We have to use tissue paper to like wipe the whole sausage b4 cooking it. And unfortunately for me, the sausage I took was not fully cooked!! Luckily I took one bite only unlike Johnson who just ate the whole thing straight... It was like...


"eh, not really cook la" *throw back to the bbq area*


"ha? not cook meh? I ate the whole thing di lo"


"hor.. ho seh di la u... 2moro cirit-birit dont need to attend class di la..." *laugh and giggles*


After cooking the sausages twice (this time it was confirmed cooked) then we cooked the fish balls!! and that was seriously good... awesome!! Then we went for the chicken wings.. That one was somehow weird... after those were cooked, Richard checked and said that it wasnt fully cooked yet. So the chicken wings were cooked twice and it turned out overcooked on the outside, just nice on the inside. lol





The chefs showing their cooking skills... XD
The fishballs!!! yummm~~~

After cooking for sum time, our leader got thrown into the sea!!! pity.. pity... lol... we still continue cooking of cos... then after the chicken wings, we went for the corn... that one i din try. but i think it shud be good.... haha we were eating and joking around, enjoying the so called feast.

The sky on that night was very beautiful... it was full with stars... I did think that if only he was there as well... how nice... it'll be like a dream come true er... to be able to star gaze with the one i loved... aaaww... ^^

finally!!!! my camera after sssooo many days...

Today im finally getting my camera!!! wwwee!!! After waiting for sssooo many days (if im not wrong I have waited about 1wk+) my camera is finally here!!! the stock is finally here... To think that on friday, i was so worried that whether it manage to come by monday. Want to know why I wanna use it on monday? well... Its because there is a beach party in the evening that is going to be held by the college seniors (I think)... Dont care. the most important part is all of the college students are going!!! and for me, this is the first time i get to go to a party like this... So being the hill billy who never went to sumting like this b4 but only heard of how its like, its sumting that im looking forward to... ^^ and I wanna make sure I get to take a few pics for memories. Maybe on tuesday when i on9, I might post bout the party and add in pics too... heh... So excited lo... hope it turns out good and not screwed. *cross my fingers*=)

Tomorrow classes finally start. Will they be as tough as sum of my frens say? Can i manage to cope? Will i fail any paper during exam? Or will i pass with flying colours? every now and then, questions like these keep wondering in my head making me nervous and worried. Its not that I dont have any confidence in myself but u can never know what is going to happen, right? Im so nervous everytime when I thought of it. Maybe if i din think so much, it might not be as bad. What to do... My brain kept having all those stupid negative thoughts that I cant prevent but to sank into despair. This paragraph I sounded down huh? Damn. Was thinking of writing sumting funny and crappy at first manatau ended up writing ridiculous stuff like this. Tsk. Crazy brain of mine. Dont care la. Whats written is written and I dont feel like deleting the whole thing just to write a new one. (too lazy to do that)

hhhmm... *in deep thoughts*

Now only I realise, eversince my life got better and im no longer single, the number of stuff that I wanted to crap in my blog had been reduced. I wonder why. Its like im not so crappy anymore. *thinking again* weird. Even I dont know what went wrong. The inspiration to crap seems to be gone or doesnt come by so frequent anymore. Damn! I want my crappy self back! wwwaa!!! *sobs* No choice. All i can do now is to just sit back and wait. Maybe it'll come again. When? That depends. On what? I also dont know. Sish. Dont care la... Will write more next time and maybe it will be a crappier one. I hope so. Love and peace ppl!! =D

First day of orientation in college

today was the first day of orientation in college... (well, of cos its first day... din i just wrote that as my title? tsk... nvm) wanna know bout what i think of it? i'll tell u... its b-o-r-i-n-g... yap, i have said it... and nope, u didnt see or read it wrongly... ur eyesight are still in good condition. dont worry. last but not least, yes, it was like i have said... boring... very very boring... hey, im not the only one who says that... most of my frens also said so... besides that, i didnt have enough sleep last night which made my mood worse... because of that, during the 2hrs talk, i slept like nobody's business in the hall. Unbelievable huh? believe it. im not the really obedient kid that u think i am. i did break rules at times and sleep during classes u know.

That was all i wanna crap bout college i guess... hhhmm... ok... im having blogger's block... Suddenly ran out of things to write about. *thinking hard* i think that is all... will have this one a short one... heh

I have found my silver lining!!! ^^

ok... some of u might have felt curious about my title for this new blog or maybe curious bout the caption i wrote in one of my pics in frenster... well... *ahem* *clear troat* i think most of u all must have heard of the idiom that goes "in every dark cloud, there is a silver lining"... that is the silver lining that im refering to... why? thats because... 3 months ago, my life was like a living hell after a certain incident happened (wanna know bout it? maybe reading my previous blogs can help) I was like a zombie... all my happiness and smiles had been drained out from my body... so does my soul... I was lifeless... only dark clouds surrounded me... I felt like i was in a total darkness... but thanks to my frens who had been there for me... my life wasnt that bad.. it was brighten up by abit... that, my fellow readers, was the dark cloud that i was in... until i went to ns... I met lots of frens there... guys and girls.... it somehow opened my mind... retrieve my soul... i felt happy and was never lonely... i always have frens surrounded me... help me when im in trouble.. cheer me up when im down... we were like a family there... =)

besides that, i have found someone... someone who had change my point of view on certain issues... like the one that i had faced... the one that caused dark clouds to surround my life... He was there... trying to tell me... trying to help me open up my mind... at first, i refuse... eventhough i admit, i have feelings for him, i try to keep it hidden... because i fear to feel the pain again.. fear to suffer again... I thought I could stop that feeling from growing but the more i tried the deeper i sunk into it... Finally, i gav up... because to deny that feeling was very hard to do and the pain that i have caused him was the worst mistake that I have ever done... during that time, my heart ached everytime I looked at him... his expression that reviewed nothing but disspointment, sadness and pain... I tried to ignore but failed... So only i decided to try like what he suggested... and to my surprise, it turned out a better and totally unexpected 'result'... I was happy and jumped with joy for i didnt expect this to turn out to be good... now, my life has changed from the worse to the better... without the feeling of loneliness like i used to felt... without the dark clouds hanging above me wherever i go... Instead, I know that when i needed someone there for me, he without a doubt will always be by my side... I no longer feel lonely... I have finally managed to stand up steadily after that incident...

I have managed to write my own story... direct my own movie... and no longer become the audience or the spectator that just sits there and admire others' successful movie making... Its time for others to admire my life, my movie, my story...

Yes... i have lead a much happier life now and also i have found that silver lining that i have been waiting for throughout these times that have helped me gotten rid of my dark clouds... ^^