material

materials...

urgh...

have to study...

sien...

lazy...

wanna sleep...

zzz....

=.=

neutral again...

Im not in the mood for any lovey dovey things right now... if i can avoid any of it, trust me, i will... Its like it somehow make me sick or make me wanna drown myself into despair when I come across any stuff of this type... urgh!!! =.= I suck...

Anyway, exam is near... study study study... cos after exam, I am ssssoooo gonna enjoy to the fullest~~~ have a whole list of to-do's for the holidays.... wee~~~ cant wait! XD

Heard that next sem is gonna be tougher than this sem... *gulp* *sweating*... hope I can pass it again and this time, dont wanna do anything at the eleventh hour d!!! If not, the results turn out like shit nia... haiz...

Believe in myself... I can do it~~~

Dont wanna end up like the egg... >.<

balala

Exam is near...

I am nervous about it...

fear...

is the word that fits...

scared i cant score like last time...

alot have been happening recently...

my progress, to me, is deteriorating...

haiz...

scared, scared, scared...

nervous, nervous, nervous....

PS:

the further i distant from you, the nearer i am to you...

the more i wanna avoid you, the more i see of you...

haiz... =(

a memory lane which at first should not even start... =/

G.I Joe

yesterday (saturday), went to sunrise McD for group study with keat wei and shirlyn... It was not good though... we did finish a few questions for electronic instrumentation and communication assignment with a few on engineering mechanics... BUt it was seriously freaking me out!!! why??? cause I dont understand a thing about framework!!! and the worst part is... I tried the tutorials and failed to get the answers I wanted!!! oh my good god... I was kinda freak out somemore with what i am facing right now.. I was really oh my god... haiz... >.<

Anyway, after studying, we went to gurney and bought tickets for G.I.Joe!!! hehe... while waiting for it to start, we went popular to do some shopping (more like refilling stock cause there are stuff that i have run out >.<) Then went in for the movie~ the movie was seriously good wei... I just LOVE the technology that they are using in the movie.. Its so advance and cool!!! the actions also not bad and the jokes are not lame... XD Overall, it was an awesome moive!!! omg... I wish next time I can manage to explore the technology that they are using... Its seriously cool! XD

ps: I'm slowly letting it go but that does not means that my feelings for you have fade... so I hope u wont break my last condition... That is all that Im asking... nothing more...

I've made up my mind

I'll stay strong for me...

I'll let go for me...

I wont deny that im feeling very shitty right now...

I feel very emo...

Feel very depressed and lost...

But I believe that I can overcome this...

If he does not know how to appreciates me...

Then its his lost...

I've done my best to maintain it...

But he doesnt care...

he doesnt bother...

so thats it...

I'll give up and move on...

luckily I still my friends to always be there for me....

Be there to cheer me up...

Be there to share my pain and sorrow...

And also, lend me their shoulder to cry on...

I wont let their effort go to waste...

So i'll be strong for them and myself...

I know i can...

ps: there are many more fishes in the sea... XD but not planning to fish for any now... =) just need some company... =)