Torn apart...

What happens if you were given ONLY 2 choices to choose...

And the worst part of it all is the question...

Love or Friendship?

to be with the one u love or to be the one who is equally important, your best friend?

There is no other options besides these 2... >.<

Trying hard not to think bout this for now...

Choose to delay this until the time finally comes...

the time when i have to think wisely about this...

which i secretly hope that will not happen... =(

C++

C++ very very tough...
the new assignments damn hard...
see stars nia... gai lo sien lo...
nex week got 3 more freaking test to go... haiz...
the thought of it kills my soul deeply... >.<

argh!!!
sien!!!
i need a vacation!

emo

emo...
emo...
emo....
very emo...
realy emo....
damn emo...
bloody emo...
stupid emo...

SIEN!!!!
>.<

bloody hell....
lost...
confuse...
assignments and tests piling up like shitty mountains...

#%$^%!!!!!

ps: hate this stupid day... =(

I wanted you by Ina

The lyrics is kind of sad but the melody is seriously nice... Damn addicted to this song for now... =)

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I... I'm so sorry baby
But I, I... I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
... to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

To u, my dear...

I know these few weeks are very pressuring...
Not only u feel that way, everyone who's taking this course feels the same...
I really really wanted to help u...
but I seriously dont know how...
Still im too fragile to be treated like the way u treat me now...
hot then cold then hot again...
And dont know when u'll treat me cold again...
My heart is too fragile and weak to absob the impulse it had on me...
Thus it'll cause me to be emo everytime im around u...
That is why i choose to space out 4 awhile... until all these had passed...
Because I am not strong enough for this...
I thought i am but i was wrong...
I tried to be strong enough but my walls are not properly build...
Am still changing...
Into someone whom can bear with this...
I'll be stronger for you but i need more time...
Pls dont hate me for what I did...
Because that is the best way that I could think of...

U might not even read this but if u ever did (i hope u will)... these are the words from the bottom of my heart...
Love u now and always~
<3